Dignity.....

The dictionary meaning being- the quality of being worthy of respect.....

Mother Teresa created a Home in Kalighat  for  the dying....so that....these poor unwanted people ,who were ill and dying on the road could  die in DIGNITY in this Home.

This  concept ofcourse  appealed  to me enormously but did not understand the meaning  of it in depth .which  was explained  to me in totality by Life last year-2013.
Now when I think about it - it's scary - back then it was moving from one point to the other ,or  from
One day to the other.

If anyone is to be accountable for the whole  uncalled  for  situation  it was  ----I.....

I in my  blind ignorance just took a step ,where there was no place for it......
No one gave me the assurance of welcome.....I just inferred. As if that was not bad enough .....I
Started to make myself at home....taking over the house .....so to say.

All the time blind to the fact that I was not wanted there......All the signs were  there  glaring  at me....
You. Are Not  wanted here.....Being ignored,Not acknowledging  my presence,keeping me waiting for ever,being told -who you think you are- Maharani..you are here so that you do not have to work,I will  take you back to the Ashram.....etc.  etc....etc....
What was it...?????
It was Inertia on my part - I understood in my head that this person ...I have been close to  and  shared
A lot  with ........the commitment remains the same on both sides -it does not .....
I am still stuck on it ....while the other has gone through a metamorphosis......
It  took me a whole year ....a good amount of being kicked around  and  a serious illness ....to get it....
Yes....I Got It.....
The question that keeps popping up in my heart.....Would .....I Do The Same .????
And the Answer Is NEVER......Not to any one....
My parents were ordinary people ....But ....to me they were the  greatest maharajas ....because they were my Parents ...that's how they were to me ....I felt that way towards them  while they were alive
And still do ....
This whole episode ,was ,to make me feel ,not worthy of respect.
It has given me a renewed respect for what Mother Teresa  did  for those unwelcome,unwanted people of the society by giving them a Home to Die in DIGNITY.....God  Bless Her......

Shalom ....Love to All.
Sheela..

Thanks giving.....

Thanks giving  just being celebrated....this idea has always appealed to me.....

Giving Thanks is a very humbling spiritual exercise  and each one needs to  have a day of their choice to be Thankful .well ,ofcourse  there is enough reason to be thankful all the time but if it's a day to chose ..... I would take the day when Lord Krishna gave the Geeta Gyan to Arjuna.
Geeta  is  relevant even today....Geeta literally speaks to you ....any question ,any difficulty ....go to Geeta ,read,  plunge in it and you come back calm ,serene,at peace,happy.
Just take a  dip in the Holy Geeta  and come out light n happy.
Here are some of my favourite  sayings  of The Lord ......
Sarva-dharma parityajya.   mam ekam saranam vraja
aham  tvam sarva-papebhyo.   moksayisyami  ma sucah.

This means....abandon all varieties of religion and just surrender unto Me,I shall deliver you from all sinful reactions .Do not fear.

sreyan sva dharmo vigunah.  Para dharmat sv anusthitat
Sva dharme nidhanam sreyah. Para dharmo bhayavahah.

This means ...it is better to discharge ons's prescribed duties ,even  though faultily,than another's  duties perfectly .destruction in the course of performing one's  own duty is better than engaging in another's duties ,for to follow another's path is dangerous.

To me it means always  do what your heart says , you  cannot be any one else or do things that are not yours.

Lord says ....we are all souls
The soul can never be cut to pieces by any weapon,nor burnt by fire,nor moistened by water, nor dried  by the wind.
I can go on and on ....but each should read and understand  personally.

So on the Geeta Jayanti day ....I call family ....n....friends. ...read the Geeta  together. And share a meal .And this is my Thanks Giving.thank you.
Shalom....Love to all .
Sheela.

Missing Home........

Nomo! Nomo! Nomoh ! Sundori momoh
Janani Janmobhumi...gongartir  snigdho somir  jibon jurale tumi..Aubarito maath ,gogono lolaat  chumey tobo
Podo dhuli.....
 This is how kobiGuru described your feeling towards your home......

Today  a friend ,who was in school with me called from heathrow  airport before starting for India ,
Specifically Kolkata.And  all my cajoling myself ........and   Staying  away from Kolkatta just went out of the window ......basically  due to work we came to Gujarat.....one thing led  to another and we
Settled here......but the heart is always always in Kolkatta.It is said that where your treasure is your heart will be there.......all my treasures are there ......it's my birth place ....my Janani .....my Janani Ma Kali is there too .Love everything about Kolkatta.......the people ,the place ,....the Food ......the essence of  Kolkatta......I can smell  Kolkatta .....I can feel Kolkatta.......Kolkatta is my heart.....Kolkatta is my religion........
Feel like developing a pair of wings and flying to Kolkatta......it is always  ...will always be associated    with my childhood ....the wonder years of awed respect for life .....churning of each feelings and emotions as growth in age and as human being blossomed in me ......all the dreams ....all the heart breaks ,......koto pawa ....koto harano.....koto  bojha ....koto chaoya.....I can go on and on ....Then suddenly  boom and Something came in to life in my being and reality dawned on me ....Where is home ? How can you miss home ? How can you miss you ? You are .....your home is  not outside but in you .......your heart.Happy home coming.love n Shalom.
Sheela.

11thoctober.

11th october -generally a very  ordinary day,a date in the year calendar- .......but for me this date is sacred......full of possibilities.....new opportunities.The day of my birth in this wonder filled world.
Every year is another new time ,a rebirth,a time to take stock of my being here , have I been able to
Come to love me.........?get more closer to the Self?more compassionate......?less judgemental?.....forgive  more.....?Pardon the past ....Correct the present....?

This is a day of being grateful  for getting another fresh opportunity.Am I comfortable in my skin? Has humility blossomed in me?
All I need to do is be me in all integrity .Just being Me - Sheela  .....in itself  is a miracle.
May that Dawn .
Amen ...love.  N  shalom to all.
Sheela.

Now.

In my musing suddenly a thought came to me.
That each moment in time is a new beginning, that is pregnant with possibilities. You can choose to be ,all that ,you can be.Nothing can stop you ,all you need is earnestness ,to ask with an undivided heart and live an integrated life.I have always felt ,we should accept what we have or are now ,live now with it with all our being ,in love .we do not have the luxury to want what we don't have and shun what we do have.accept what we have with all our getting,all our love.life becomes a wonderful journey,each moment becomes miracle.The Now is in function ,and ,we have won the game of life.

Maa Durga.

For quite sometimes now ,I wanted a Durga  protima .But did not really look for it ,nothing really appeal to my heart .Because when I want something I do not care about anything else the cost, the distance I have to travel to get  it ,I just do it. But with maa Durga ,I just sat on it ,when I come across something that touches my heart ,I will take it.
This 23 rd of Sept'14.went to an exhibition  and at the entrance itself saw a love Maa Durga,O! It was beautiful.I held it ,then just let it go ,thinking ,it was not really required. We came home ,but back of my mind I could find myself  arguing  why  I should not get it.
That night in my sleep ,I see the Protima  in my pooja and see tears rolling down her eyes ,in sleep I call my daughters and tell them come and see Maa is alive.
Next day go to the Exhibition before  opening time ,loiter around till it opens  and go  get my Maa .Its
Sooooo pretty ,and  Alive. This was my pooja gift from Maa Durga, Durgati nashini.
Love.
Shalom.

A new dawn.......

I have been thinking.....

I am  the  architect of change in my life , all the  powers are within  me, and if I am  stagnant  someone else is not to blame ....... It's  I  and  I alone.
The thinking has to change ,all positive thoughts have to come in ,there is no  place for any other  thoughts.Universe  is  very intelligent  it will provide for all your needs and more.Faith  and believe has to be a way of life each moment .Saying goes believe a lie and you shall manifest a miracle.
All is well in my life and I am well taken care of.I trust life and all good comes to me.
May a new dawn come to all Pilgrims.
Love . Shalom.

A journey of hope.

All is well :
I am someone who just cannot be buckled down.My life has not been a cake walk at all.But in no circumstance in the journey , have I  , at any point felt ,this is it and I cannot go on any longer.I , to be honest have never known  the next step nor am I as a person  went through  life in a measured way ,to get a goal ,or manipulate  in any way.
Mostly it has been acceptance ,as it came and going through it. Never have I shut myself  off of any one ,any place nor any circumstance.Never went about explaining myself  to anyone .just let be .with time all things clear up.But if it does not just go on,keep going.In every step of the way my strength was always Hope,never is never ,Hope makes the most difficult situation turn into a miraculous ,sublime ,beautiful thing.
My Whispering Hope-
 Is a clear ,subtle message of love ,of Hope,of Wholeness
 I am ,That is the biggest miracle.
 If I am the part of the whole - That does not become less ,
 Remains whole ,where is the space then for me to be anything
 Else  but  whole and how can whole be without Hope .
 Whole is all encompassing  love,purity,compassion ,Hope ,giving,sharing.
 No wonder my hearts sings whispering Hope.
 Love to all .
 Shalom.
  Till we meet again.

Mother's Day .Thank you.

It's been a long time ,it was a forced Sabbatical due to a lot of physical malfunctions ,that needed concentrated efforts .Still at it.but much better .......
I missed you my friend.
Mother ! O. Mother,sweet mother.
There is a saying in the Jewish Tradition that  God could not be everywhere , so, He created Mothers.
Truth does not need a lot of words it comes in vibrations and in seed  forms ,and all covered in that.
I love this saying about mothers ,it's true and apt .
I have lost my mother nearly 16 yrs now,but everything that she was still resonates .
Physically she is no more but each and every moment she is there,I feel her presence.I find everything that I do ,or think are so much Her.she was a great human being,with all her greatness and faults. By her living she taught so much.  She gave so many gifts the greatest being my life.She and Baba gave us brother n I the gift of possibility.The most important feeling that we got from them was,
We can do anything ,make the best out of a situation.an open mind ,the sky is the limit.no prejudice ,
She used to keep saying Just do the right thing,never harm any one ,always stand up fr the truth .
Never stand idly by ,always know He will take care .
She was such an honest person .I can still  see me do things and realise that was so much her. I believe that's how a person lives on .I have given my daughters the same that I learnt , see them go out there and make their own mark - that's  her gift.she lives on.
The other day I kissed my Mezuzah as I entered the house n suddenly  I smiled to my self,well , I would like to say my heart smiled ,you know my mother used to touch that place of the side of the wall at the door and enter. May be she was a Jew in her last birth who knows ?
 Each moment is the moment of love ,one day in a year is not what a Mother can have. But that day is
Dedicated to her and I salute that , and take this opportunity to say Love all the Mother's ,for the pain they take , the suffering they go through to bring up their children.
Truly God could not be everywhere ,so, He created Mothers.
Peace be to all, love n Shalom.